Clairty

I think its interesting, and a little frustrating, how a really bad day, that turns into a really bad week, followed by some tears, wine, and a good nights sleep can be so eye opening. Its like every emotion you have wanted to feel in the past week meshed up into a panic unrecognizable to your own ability to stay calm.

The panic increases with every small disappointment, every single unfortunate event, every hurtful word. Escalation of emotions that don't make sense, but keep us limited in the moment. Blinded by the colors so dark in our current vision of the world keep us from seeking clarity. So misunderstood to the world is the inconsistencies of our stability. 

Each person has the strength to stay out of the dark, but each personality utilizes that strength in a different way. So career minded and professionally rooted, I find that my strength is focused in keeping an image. Holding back the tears that draw from misunderstandings, from insensitivity, from ignorance. In moments so significantly defined by my career, a moment of clarity is few and far between when you are trying to be the strong and independent success story that you have drawn up in your mind. 

Where does success lie for each of us, and are the moments in which we blind ourselves just as important as the moments in which we seek clarity? Its no secret that the world tells us success lies in our fiscal means to live, rather than our own emotional stability, but where do we draw that line? And when is too much, too much? 

The dreams we all have are relative to the actions we take to reach them. The reactive nature of outside elements can prove to be just as helpful as they are destructive. 

The mistakes I make are just stepping stones that keep me moving forward. Imagine, being so involved with your future that every decision you make could make or break it. Why do we emphasize free will so much when we are bound to make the wrong decision once in a while? And how to we claim responsibility for the wrong turns we make when we have spent so much time deciding whether a certain decision is right or wrong?

Decisions rule our lives and the only ones we make with confidence are the ones we make in clarity. So amidst a blind entrance no good can come, but when the eyes open and have been washed of the insignificant emotion there is a world of possibility.

With that we take a hesitant step towards clarity, hoping that in its transformation it can provide us with steps made despite fear.

Hoping that clarity will define the choices we make, and keep our lives bright and cool.

Just as the flowers bloom with the cool clean air only after a dangerous storm, do our decisions make sense only after a heartbreaking obstacle.