Blindly Composing Reality

Why are we programmed to constantly think about what comes next? 

Our minds are so focused on what could be, what might be, and what should be. Its infectious of our entire persona, it takes over our membranes and restrains us each and every day. We are so constrained and so unable to see the opportunity in flexibility, the comfort in each step we take, because we are not inspired by the journey, but obsessed with the destination.


Where's the reality in that? There is no reality in a race ran blind, a paper written asleep, a meal cooked with no ingredients. Its the substance of the makeup that create a clear reality in the end. What's the point in obsessing over a destination when we, ourselves, don't know what it is?


We spend our days in a crazy ambition, in a blur of misunderstood fury centered around dreams which we cannot translate into a language. We spend our days struggling with the right questions to ask, the right answers to give, and the right things to say. What would happen, if we decided to focus on each moment as it came?


The moments would be that more precious, and they would never disappoint, because they were not formerly a preconceived perfection. The breaths drawn in, and blown out would move with the fluidity at which we took them, without breaks and inconsistencies. We would see our worlds transform into seconds, spread out over periods of time, and we could better analyze both the accomplishments and failures that bring us joy in the end.

More than the destination, or even the small steps in our journey, is understanding the motivation behind each of our own personal determination. 

Spinning recklessly can result from extreme caution if we choose to display wild forms of uncertainty in each move we make. 

Failing miserably can result from determination if we choose to misinterpret our own ambition. 

Embracing Ambition

What is meant by a time for reflection? And further than that, do we choose when and where we do such thinking? It is my belief that these moments of realization, focus, and thought provoking analysis come at random, they come during times where our minds are at peace and our hearts are wandering, searching for answers that only exist in our peripheral view.

I am inspired, I am observant, I analyze, commit, and execute. The view of white racing past me brings peace to my mind, regardless of the task at hand; and, as my logic focus' on the snow stained highways, my mind wanders to a place much further away. 

I begin to see myself in the future, as I have done so many times before, and I see myself as the very person I hope to become. I see myself as even more educated, cultured, and traveled. I see myself as a strong and independent businesswoman, who makes a true and significant difference in this industry which, for as long as I can remember, I have truly loved. As if in a realistic daydream, my mind comes back to the circumstances and situations that compose my current reality. The questions flow within me about the logic of it all. Am I in any position to become that person? Have I accomplished enough to be deserving of that person? Where does my determination, my focus, and my passion truly lie?

The happiest moment of my reflection lies within the abstract understanding of each and every intricacy of these answers. The reality which brings me to conclusive evidence of my path cleared of misunderstandings, at least for a little while.

I start to become inspired by the journey, as it unfolds before my eyes, the journey I have yet to embark upon. I begin to feel emotion transforming my thoughts, and invoking excitement within my calm and steady soul.

Those who believe in the power of inspiration, will thrive in their ambition.

An Infinite String of Adjustments

My mind is blocked, there is no formation of understandings, there is no portrayal of organization.

My life is in a current state of adjustments. 

It really makes you think, it makes you wonder how you could possibly take on more than you are right now. How you deal with the changes that are forced upon you, and how you initiate change in yourself. When you feel so blocked, so uninspired by the events that tragically form your day. How is this routine that you find yourself in going to keep you happy, even if you find yourself in a current state of content. 

Because I am not just going through the motions. 

Everything I do, everyday, I do with heart, with logic, and with flexibility. The thoughts enter and leave my mind with differentiation and I embrace the idea that they will forever imprint me with certain feelings, beliefs, and values. I take on my daily responsibilities with vigor, intent, and determination for their completion. I allow myself to embrace the reality of the unknown, whether that lie in time, space, or dependence.

I see my daily routine as an adventure, rather than a burden.

Long days will inevitably accompany this mindset. It will be as if a million things lie before you, and even more comes to be as you race through your jungle of responsibilities. The trees do not clear for even a moment to allow you to catch your breath, life is chasing you constantly, and keeping up to the standard you place yourself at will determine how you feel when you finally reach the clearing. In the clearing you will find rejuvenation, you will see a lake of intuition, and of thought provoking excitement. 

I am a woman on the edge, being chased by life, and jumping over rocks of obstacles, only to land in a pool of adjustments. But the run isn't determined by all that. I remain calm in the face of intensity as I embrace every step, every fault, and every breath. I welcome the uncertainties with an open heart, and despite the fatigue and misunderstanding, I simply move forward, into a world I know I will conquer,

Into a life I know will bring me happiness.